How can i love u more? Please do teach me , haven't i do enough? Yes indeed is not enough truefully. How can i? I do love you. So please help me.

Once there is a white lily. She is charming adorable and happy. However she is always afraid of the dark and the outside world. She thinks she never could survive in the outside world by its own cause it is too dangerous. She always meet sun on the day, Sun was the best friend of lily. Sun tells lily otherwise, the outside world may be dangerous but it is also adventurous and joyful, Only if lily was willing step out to the outside then she will be able to grow into a beautiful and colorful lily.
But poor lily was too afraid that Sun will abandon her to take the journey by himself because she was reluctant to move.too afraid to, she can bare with it.
And so, lily made a selfish decision that was to abandon her very best friend before her friend did so. she let lone herself to live in darkness that she was always afraid of and do not come out on the day. She had gave up sun, without sunlight by lacking of the nourishment of the sun lily is getting sick, her heart was shut . She was sad and lonely. everyday tears had wash her face.
Sun was so worried about lily but he cant do anything but to try to shine into the dark. try to nourish lily as much as possible. hoping day by day lily will return so that they could be friends go round and round the world. Sun will never give up lily no matter what.
It take sometime for lily to realize that, but she is not to late. That morning after N days lily walk out from the dark and see sun again . Sun did not walk away and left her alone. he had been waiting all this while. lily has been never as fresh as before.
happily ever after. <3

what am i doing?? i m blind i cant see the way pls lead me!! i m soso lost, god lord jesus pls dont give up on the missing sheep. i need u. i feel so helpless, my studies my future my goal..everything.

hmm i am not that angry now for all my memory in my hard disk being delated by my brother. i think the reason is all the memory will not lost in my heart my mind n soul.. all cant be forgotten unless until my death

原来不是他们不适合我，而是我是我不适合他们

小女孩要长大

我想小女孩需要碰碰钉子才能长大．　
要不只是住在自己幻想的乐园里是无法知道这天有多高，海有多深．．．
也无法知道真理，事实及世界的残酷．　小女孩想要知道世界的痛和泪．
小女孩不想白吃白喝住在宫殿里像公主一样等人侍候．
小女孩不想被当井底之蛙，她想用自己双手脚去体验人的人情世故．

她知道她会碰钉子撞墙子．．．她会努力不让自己受伤，正因为她长大了！

a terrible disease got a fine cure

this thing had haunt me for weeks, and giving me sleepless night.

finally no insonmia again i sleep from 11 to 10.^^

hope i m not addicted to the drugs whahah