pain that i never imagine

hi there, u have told me the pain that i never imagine . yes i u r so true, i couldn't imagine n experience the pain u pass through , the pain that worst than anything include death. the feeling is as u were dead and reborn from a new cell n regenerating ur body. Recover at a really really slow pace, bit by bit. everyday u struggle to be healthier than yesterday being tough n strong. Why r u always being strong alone as u do not need anyone . why u never lean on someone to hope for support. i know u need it.. just like any one of us. You can be strong once or hundreds or thousands but please be weak once can u?? let me be by your side at least once... i beg u plssssssssssssss