Total mess and i am PISSED

i never thought i scare to be lonely dat much.. i dunno what happen to my job i just simply dislike it. Specially i have no motive and objective to be there.
I feel really suffering today, my job might not be really hard but my heart and soul was going hard.
i just do not know wat to do, it was just a total mess.
i need to do spare part, i need to do swap >.< . i do not whether i know should thank my leader coz i din not get scolded of all mistake i have done but i just dont feel so.
the new guy zzzzzzzzz i dunno how to say, sigh is just too much for me to take care off. and i dont really like him much. dont ask why, just a feel.
i miss all my friends and my past colleague derrick and ziin(= jocelyn) which entretained me throughtout all the working period. i miss you all guys^^

Can i still stand this? should i still stand this?

i dunno..... i dunno what i wanted.

happy birthday mommmy

happy birthday mommy!!! love you so so much.
You are the best mom ever which always love me and pamper me so much haha..
i really dun think i can ever live without you, even when i m working i start thinking abt home, i miss your cook.
i really felt sad these few week because i am not able to eat your dishes and talk to you.
i just miss you soso much.
Thanks for delivering me,
thanks for giving me a warm home,
thanks for giving me your love,
thanks for sharing your life with me,
thanks for kissing me,
thanks for hugging me,
thanks for pampering me,
thanks for cooking me dishes,
thanks for washing my clothes,
thanks for everything and everything you brought to my life.
thank you.












lastly I LOVE YOU

The Murder

What is Shark Finning?

• Shark finning refers to the removal and retention of shark fins and the discard at sea of the carcass. The shark is most often still alive when it is tossed back into the water. Unable to swim, the shark slowly sinks toward the bottom where it is eaten alive by other fish.
• Shark finning takes place at sea so the fishers have only the fins to transport. Shark meat is considered low value and therefore not worth the cost of transporting the bulky shark bodies to market.
• Any shark is taken-regardless of age, size, or species.
• Longlines, used in shark finning operations, are the most significant cause of losses in shark populations worldwide.
• Shark finning is widespread, and largely unmanaged and unmonitored.
• Shark finning has increased over the past decade due to the increasing demand for shark fins (for shark fin soup and traditional cures), improved fishing technology, and improved market economics.
• Shark specialists estimate that 100 million sharks are killed for their fins, annually.
• One pound of dried shark fin can retail for $300 or more. It's a multi-billion dollar industry.

In other words, the living organism is being chopped down its hands and legs alive and being abandon and let the time to take away its life. They were let lone to die slowly in agony and in hands of human's truculent. Blood were rushing out from the main body because of the broken arms even tears were unseen as it was flushed away by the strong current, the heart pumping weakly, but they are still grasping for air waiting for their last breathe. What will be their prayer? to live or to die? All their sacrifice made us to enjoy our damn shark fin soup to ensure our status and pride. In fact throwing our humanity to the trash bin. And as we consume, we are crushing their crispy arms and legs like a serious killer enjoying after murdered the victim. That was just disgusting when thinking. To be frankly, shark fins were tasteless and only the soup which add the flavour to the dish. In addition, sharks also accumulated many harmful toxic into their bodies through bioaccumulation as their at the top of the food chain. Where is our humanity? do we really need to eat shark fins? I am extremely ashamed of myself which i just taken the dish last week sob>.< , if can i do not ever wanna eat sharkfin anymore.. T.T

<< extinction in a bowl

Do not be afraid

Do not be afraid,
because i am your shelther.

Do not be afraid,
because i am with you.

Do not be afraid,
because i have power to save you from evil.

Do not be afraid,
because it was me.

PS. I will never forget my lamb, i recognise all my lamb just like they recognise me.

i am so wrong

the job is scary nia.. >.< need to learn everything in 1 week?? i just left 4 days, ziin u need to save me lolz

sleepless morning @.@

yeng lo two hours, sleep ghost arr >.< ... still feel like talking mouth damn thirsty lolzz

Happy Happy

yuhoo. finally got myself a job this must thank my beloved dear ziin, hehe thankyou so much hehe. but i really hope i wont kena grace so much after u left damn scary lolzz haha. but i seriously thought no hope adi 1. hehe now suddenly keep my passion fire liao ^^ going on my next training
Gambateh tse, vivi san!!