the meant vivi

hello here , i would like to say sorry to all my brothers n sisters..... so so sorry, i cant help to be mean . I dun even know since when i have change to such person . i never know i m such person as well, i felt so bad about it. I m so sorry that my words bring needles. why are you being so mean vivi ,why?? y r u doing this? is dat necessary? Do u know your word hurt others as well? what right do u have to justify others? what do u have? do not forget u r just a nobody? what makes u so proud n arrogant? without god u r just a worthless piece of shit

the new path or lost?

My journey has continue... the road not taken
the path full with uncertainty and unknown
the path i have to walk alone
the path whereby is dark and sees no light
the path that makes me fear to take a step forward
the path that must be chosen
it is my destiny. to find ,to hear and to rely on you..

The COWARD

The attitude of never be afraid and daring was once possess by me??ever??
i guess the answer was a fine NO.
I knew the need of self-confidence, self-esteem , and believing in yourself will be a must to be successful. BUT i never have one of those, because i have always been a coward and being afraid to lose, to afraid of failure, being afraid to embarrass myself, too afraid, too afraid too afraid of everything just like an ostrich...which hide itself in the ground as if no one will see it so that it wont have to confront the strange n awkward situation. In which this always have ended to brought me to the great failure. This is because the little mini minor challenge had been given up by me from the very beginning even before the starting point... And of course challenges was always an opportunity to grow so that it enable us to be successful. I understand the values but i never practice it, i am just being afraid of pain.

Even though some times i do get the chance to perform or speak for group, i never did a great job NEVER EVER.. i am sorry to all my members which i always have been 扯 you all punya 后 腿 i have never be a good member, i felt really guilty & sorry about that really especially my act and atitude, i even pointed to others to do my job as the job had already assign to me. i hate myself being nervous at the front even they are all my classmate and it has already been so many times.. i hate it i hate it. Why will i always act so silly and stupid in front to make fun of myself???..then i am back to my place and being disappointed of what i have done...How many time is this going to repeat? i already 18 a great adult... am i still gonna perform like this for another 100 years still giving herself an excuse being nervous and lack of confidence?? OMG that is ridiculous and very funny if these continue i really dunno how am i going to face the future's challenges and the world.. is that why that i am not i am not qualified to be a tool of god as i am useless and weak.. i will never be as great like our mother Marry,the disciples of Jesus, St Paul, saints , mother Teresa , Michael Jackson, and of course those who work hard for god..ys and even my sis to be so brave and daring... only me who cannot do it only me....still acting like a cry baby who being scared as mommy was missing.( a pampered child)
Pls help me!!! i wanna get our of this PLS PLS PLS

God save me ffrom slacking again

Psycho psycho ..... aRrHHHHHHH
how to do??? really hate to study those research can anyone help???
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16% of my marks gone again ....

my Little Rock Scripture Study's Graduation

Finally hehe we r all out of jail keke....... thankyou my Lord Jesus Christ for letting all my group member to be graduating with me. We are all gathered here in the name of yours to share the words of you and being the witnesses of you.
I am so sorry to dat i m always not good enough , just like any people we fell down, so god please strengthen us.

To be graduated from the Prison of st. Paul 1st we need to finish the letters from st.Paul-Epistle to the Philipians, Philemon,Colossians,Ephesians (which i adi finish damn damn happy) and our attendance should be 70% very strict ler. SCARY
Luckily i finally was bail from the prison hehe. When my prisoner barcode was announce is wrong der.. then Father da hua is like looking at me staring n very sure dat this person is present n he waited n waited me to come out ended he wanted to tear off my cert adi lol
gosh damn embarrass wei haha .. anyway i m bailll!! who cares abt dat hahah.

to all my friends i really wanted to share this person with you all that is St. paul. but i really wanna go to bed adi maybe next time .. he is really great n interesting ..

ya n dat pic is my prove hehe n my cert i din post la lazy haha

the last minute outing in my holiday

wow a lazy morning again hehe.... my alarm rang wor 5 times still snooring lol kesiannya ...... woke at ten okok should start on my psycho research die lu lazy to read lol

nvm go have fun 1st hehe , zhini n sue yen msg wow.. suddenly so many dates lol jkjk
so 1 went out to meet my great buddies( yen n wei wei) at sp really long long time din c them le missed them a lot lot . i say again alooooooooooooooootttttttt!!!!!!!! good thing they r coming to sunway - really soon hehe.. but both of then got hubby sayang liao left me alone sob sob nobody 1 haha . good for them la both couple also so sweet .
sing K at amp karaoke - gosh we got two group 1 keep singing 2nd can play 1 2 juice... swt la
y not singing??
SUE YEN wanna pak tao also next time ma teman ur hubby me n bo yuan damn cham being light bulb again damn gan ga la gosh luckily be4 dat got hao yuan teman haha but he more kesian la no transport to go back , faster thank me for being such a nice person to send u back home while risking all our lives wakkakaka..

SO, Bobo yuan owe me once ya really jam arr go to your house nearly miss my graduation

Ps. miss u guys alll

the Curse

wah my family damn cam last month just back from australia, my dad had ask us to paint my room.- my sis drop off from the ladder ended up need to X-ray. yesterday me kena motobike bang, my face ruin adi . today is my younger sis turn to gan jioug to get in the car n fell down.
gosh kesian. my little brother u better be careful i might be your turn... wkakakaak