How can i love u more? Please do teach me , haven't i do enough? Yes indeed is not enough truefully. How can i? I do love you. So please help me.

Once there is a white lily. She is charming adorable and happy. However she is always afraid of the dark and the outside world. She thinks she never could survive in the outside world by its own cause it is too dangerous. She always meet sun on the day, Sun was the best friend of lily. Sun tells lily otherwise, the outside world may be dangerous but it is also adventurous and joyful, Only if lily was willing step out to the outside then she will be able to grow into a beautiful and colorful lily.
But poor lily was too afraid that Sun will abandon her to take the journey by himself because she was reluctant to move.too afraid to, she can bare with it.
And so, lily made a selfish decision that was to abandon her very best friend before her friend did so. she let lone herself to live in darkness that she was always afraid of and do not come out on the day. She had gave up sun, without sunlight by lacking of the nourishment of the sun lily is getting sick, her heart was shut . She was sad and lonely. everyday tears had wash her face.
Sun was so worried about lily but he cant do anything but to try to shine into the dark. try to nourish lily as much as possible. hoping day by day lily will return so that they could be friends go round and round the world. Sun will never give up lily no matter what.
It take sometime for lily to realize that, but she is not to late. That morning after N days lily walk out from the dark and see sun again . Sun did not walk away and left her alone. he had been waiting all this while. lily has been never as fresh as before.
happily ever after. <3

what am i doing?? i m blind i cant see the way pls lead me!! i m soso lost, god lord jesus pls dont give up on the missing sheep. i need u. i feel so helpless, my studies my future my goal..everything.

hmm i am not that angry now for all my memory in my hard disk being delated by my brother. i think the reason is all the memory will not lost in my heart my mind n soul.. all cant be forgotten unless until my death

原来不是他们不适合我，而是我是我不适合他们

小女孩要长大

我想小女孩需要碰碰钉子才能长大．　
要不只是住在自己幻想的乐园里是无法知道这天有多高，海有多深．．．
也无法知道真理，事实及世界的残酷．　小女孩想要知道世界的痛和泪．
小女孩不想白吃白喝住在宫殿里像公主一样等人侍候．
小女孩不想被当井底之蛙，她想用自己双手脚去体验人的人情世故．

她知道她会碰钉子撞墙子．．．她会努力不让自己受伤，正因为她长大了！

a terrible disease got a fine cure

this thing had haunt me for weeks, and giving me sleepless night.

finally no insonmia again i sleep from 11 to 10.^^

hope i m not addicted to the drugs whahah

Lord i do belive , help my unbelieve.
主我信，请补助我的无信．

meaning of love

love is forgiveness

forgiveness is love

love is an action
~~~ the willingness to forgive is love

the Answer

the answer then i seek for years, he enlighten me. There is no coincident.
He shines forever. and i love him!

放下完美，人生更美．

我们每个人都在追求不同的欲望达至心目中的完美人生，有人不停购物，证明自己存在的价值；有人梦寐以求登极乐世界，　在追梦的过程中，也宛如掀开了潘多拉的盒子，　人性的贪婪，　自私倾巢而出，　到底我们完美了人生？　还是人生完美了我们？

by 吴嘉雯　星洲

我觉得这篇文章很有意识有很多值得反省的地方．往往我们在日常生活中我们几乎忘了什么是满足，知足常乐，退一步海阔天空也根本不存在我们的字典内．执着变成了固执，果断变成残忍，有心变成私心，家人变成了陌生以达成我们的完美? 我们是如何衡量我们心目中的完美呢？到底完美如何把我们的眼都遮蔽了呢？我们又用多少的美满去换取完美？
我们实在错过太多了．

the Reminder that i wish i wont forget!

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to,
doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

Love Potion

Sometimes love were so normal,just like breathing in the air,
it was so usual that sometimes it was hard to felt it presents.


Some we thought that relationships does not need to make effort to maintain it.
It was as natural as drinking water, we never thought we will lose it someday!

All were so natural, so usual that as if we take it for granted?

Prayer when Ones is down

I know, lord, that you believe in me

Dear lord,

There are decisions

That must be made

And obligations that must be fulfilled.

There are deadlines to be met

And duties to be performed.

But I know, Lord,

That you will lead me to the right path.

I do have bad days and I make stupid mistakes;

I know I sometimes fail to live up to people’s expectations.

But, Lord, despite my shortcomings

I know you have not given up on me.

I am not as beautiful

As I want to be;

I am not as young

As I used to be;

I am not as talented

As I wish to be;

I am not as strong

As I strive to be.

But Lord, you make me feel

A am someone great

Because you choose me

To be your servant.

I know I am special

And important in your eyes

You gave up your life to save me

And set me free. Amen

the Speaking test

sigh... i have been worried for yearss, it finally comes to an end .hehe

Today finally is my speaking test , i enjoyed throughout the whole exam.It is really interesting and i have so much fun . My group members were lugman, viknesh and lent.
I am consider quite lucky as i am in the second group so we actually have time to break the ice. And most important my group members were quite friendly and chatty lolz..
the topic for today is what is the most important thing you need to prepare when you are to go to the first job interview. There are four points which are:
1. to get information about the job
2. to get information about the organisation
3. the dress attire
4. to improve communication skills

Eventually i lack of a bit bit luck. Because i am candidate A which means i must speak first.
sigh.. that is not the point , the point is i miss the word 1st job interview, which i actually focusing too much of getting information about the job ...sad luckily the examiner was lineant she reminded me and asked me to speak more in part B.

In part B we are actually having a discussion from the topic given just now and create an arguement. The mr. lugman keep intterupt me .... when i am having a debate with viknesh..
stupid 1!!! other 2 which is lent and lugman quickly stand on viknesh's point n support him right after viknesh opposes me.. bad fellow la they all bully me...=( making 3 against 1
but is really nice to have them in the test, they are quite chatty so we are able to maintain the conversation there isnt any pause or silence.. ( i laughed throughout the conver, but i hope the examiner dont mind because she laughed too... at me fighting against them lolz hope she enjoy it )

Jesus just love me so much he blessed me.. i LOVE LOVE him tooo hehe

戴佩妮-一个人的行李- having this feeling now

Just feeling to go travel now, i wanna go i wanna walk i wanna run wanna climb wanna jump.
i wan peace and silence ...i wanna be out of here. Like a bird in a cage is thirst of freedom and wanted desparately to be release. It cant wait a second more to stretch its arm to let go and fly to the sky with no boundaries no restriction. And it is ready to claim all its freedom which no ones is able to deprive......................
The never ending journey had started.

The iMperfect day

the day was my big day .. hmm i knew i knew i should be grateful is such a way... but still
i do not know why.. am i a bit green here? i guess yes i am coz i never get what ppl get on their birthday..
But in true they also din get what i get on my birthday.
then why compare?
then why jeolous?
then why unhappy?
then why remember?
then why forgot?

the blur day

muet......i suppose i din aything correct except myself to the exam hall .zzz
1. i forgot my ic
2. i brought in the wrong exam slip
3. i din bring pencil
damn .. a swt swt day, lucky me is i still feel calm hahah
God is with me.
so i told the teacher i forgot to bring my purse i got nth to proof myself i asked can i call my mom, she said ok go call. lolz
i enter and out the hall dunno how many times liao >.<,
i park my car just 3 steps from the exam hall then i buzzed my car for few times lock and unlock coz forget this and that. wow i think i m incredible. that time i really feel like using a ccloth to cover my face >.< i got no face liao sigh..

Some complaint,
the audio for listening is just really suxxx.. they repeated dunno how many times n the disc got stuck, they even change 3 cds zzzz
at that time we only left last 2 question , i think they just love us so much and refuse to let us go lolzz we spend extra 20 min just for the last 2 question. stupid nia haha

Total mess and i am PISSED

i never thought i scare to be lonely dat much.. i dunno what happen to my job i just simply dislike it. Specially i have no motive and objective to be there.
I feel really suffering today, my job might not be really hard but my heart and soul was going hard.
i just do not know wat to do, it was just a total mess.
i need to do spare part, i need to do swap >.< . i do not whether i know should thank my leader coz i din not get scolded of all mistake i have done but i just dont feel so.
the new guy zzzzzzzzz i dunno how to say, sigh is just too much for me to take care off. and i dont really like him much. dont ask why, just a feel.
i miss all my friends and my past colleague derrick and ziin(= jocelyn) which entretained me throughtout all the working period. i miss you all guys^^

Can i still stand this? should i still stand this?

i dunno..... i dunno what i wanted.

happy birthday mommmy

happy birthday mommy!!! love you so so much.
You are the best mom ever which always love me and pamper me so much haha..
i really dun think i can ever live without you, even when i m working i start thinking abt home, i miss your cook.
i really felt sad these few week because i am not able to eat your dishes and talk to you.
i just miss you soso much.
Thanks for delivering me,
thanks for giving me a warm home,
thanks for giving me your love,
thanks for sharing your life with me,
thanks for kissing me,
thanks for hugging me,
thanks for pampering me,
thanks for cooking me dishes,
thanks for washing my clothes,
thanks for everything and everything you brought to my life.
thank you.












lastly I LOVE YOU